Chris Benoit: Muderer

"Murderer" is not how I want to remember the great wrestler Chris Benoit.

But that's what he was in the end. I really don't know what I want to say here, I'm just typing to try to get the words out. I'm not some pro wrestler sitting in a studio searching for the right words to say. I'm a pissed off fan. I feel dirty for having some emotion while watching the Benoit tribute on WWE Monday Night RAW.

Langdon and SoG followed Benoit's career long before I even heard of this Dynamite Kid-clone, but I enjoyed watching him wrestle as much as they (and everyone else in the world) did. And that's why I feel betrayed and disgusted. I never met personally met him, and he could've probably gave a rat's ass who the YODC Crew are; but when an athlete who's career you've followed and respected KILLS A CHILD, it's hard not to feel some sort of anger.

Saying he killed a child may be oversimplifying things, though-- "...autopsy results showed Benoit first murdered his wife, Nancy. She was bound at the feet and wrists and died of asphyxiation sometime on Friday...She was wrapped in a towel and some blood was found under her head...The couple's son, who also died of asphyxia, was apparently killed as he lay in bed on Saturday morning, hours before Benoit hanged himself."

Those grisly details wiped away--for me--an entire career of hard-earned respect. Will I feel this way a few weeks from now? I don't know. Maybe it will be discovered that Benoit wasn't in his right mind, and the man that was the wrestler was not the same man that committed those monstrous acts. Right now, though, I doubt the two could ever really be separated, and three lives have been destroyed.

Condolences to the victims' families.